......more red pee....less red hair!!

The dog's shedding......Hilary's shedding......I'm slowly losing my hair. It's a wonder you can see through the house and.....the vacuum sucks if you'll excuse the pun. Someone suggested she not go out in a high wind!

Today is "H" day. Noon is "B" hour. Hil get's the rest of her hair buzzed off today. It's driving her nuts so it's time. Mebbe I'll get a sympathy buzz at the same time.......mebbe! (H is for hair. B is for buzz.) Her wig shows up on Tuesday. I like the style! More of a layered look.

Yesterday was round two in the ring of chemo. Good news though. No adverse reaction this time, certainly due to the pre-meds she was getting the day before. Course she can't sleep coz she's higher'n kite but that'll wear off. The really good news is that her spleen has subsided! Still not normal but no longer a threat. She's eating better because it's not exerting pressure on her stomach. Naturally she immediately starts talking about hitting balls on the tennis court. No comment. LOL. As Minnie the oncologist said......"YES!!"

Her old friend Rosie took her down to the hospital in the morning and I followed about half an hour later. Barb had taken her down the previous day for her bloodwork. I had to leave about 11.30 or so. Life goes on and the golf course called........work that is. They were there about seven hours but this time they got everything into her........not like last time. Rosie sat there chatting away and doing her bead work....on piece work for crying out loud. I offered to engineer the process for her as it didn't look too efficient. I figured she was only making about four bucks and hour!!

What they didn't see were the guys two stations down, mind you I do tend to see people through my own tinted glasses.
The first was short. Hey I'm short but this guy's feet didn't touch the floor.....that's short!
He was brown in his mid fifties with a smile on his face. Totally bald without a crease in his face and shiny! He was obviously cold as someone had thrown a green blanket over him. He immediately reminded me of the four ball on a snooker table.......with ears.
I nodded to him. He smiled ruefully.

The second was grey! Skinny and grizzled. Short pepper and salt hair and beard. Fast asleep with his mouth wide open. Someone had taken his teeth out. What surprised me was how wide was his mouth. Totally relaxed. I swear I could've put my entire fist in his mouth without touching a gum. He was snoring! Not a pretty sight as my dad would have said. New blood feeding into his arm. Transfusion time. Bit sad that.

So we move on. Another day. More pills. More needles. Hil's sister shows up from England next week. Bit of golf.....wedding to go to. Life goes on. Slightly modified. Keep laughing. My favourite expression "It is what it is."
Lot of people a lot worse off. I feel for people who are on their own. We are not!!
Friends here. Friends on the West Coast. Friends in the States.
Still getting cards.....and food.....cookies!!!

Thanx folks!

......a week off!

This seems to be the beginning of a week's respite. Hilary is feeling better now than she has for two weeks, no Prednazone or Neupagen for a while to which there are seemingly some unpleasant side effects. Her mouth is still swollen but the sores seem to have dried up. Now, at least, she's eating....trying to put some of the weight back on. Roast beef and Yorkshire pudding (what else?) does the trick!!

She actually went out last night, with Krista, to a meeting of "Look Good Feel Good" a support group.......all the way to Brampton......definitely south of Major Mac!! She enjoyed it and got a lot out of it. It's usually just a one time event and concentrates on the cosmetic side of things as treatment progresses. She's even talking about hitting the range and trying to hit a few balls......we'll see!

Soooo, like I said, a week orf!! Back into it starting Aug 25th. The only med she's taking just now is something to control the Uric acid build up but there is no apparent side effect to this.
Next week Rosemary is taking her to the hospital. This last week she got flowers and cards from various folk and fantastic cookies from Nancy.....there's only two left!! The cookie monster strikes again.

..........Botox it ain't!!!

Just a brief update on Hilary. Other than her mouth being covered in sores, her lips all swollen up (definitely not Botox) being exhausted most of the time, not getting either much sleep or food......coz of her mouth, aching bones and a lousy stomach she's doing fine!

I'm getting good at giving her a daily needle, rotating between each arm and the belly plus I had to do an Excel spreadsheet in order to manage her regimen of meds! I don't think she even feels the needle!! How do they make them anyway??

She's trying to get protein into her as she's losing weight again.......my cooking skills are definitely an advantage now and we're trying to eat the same things.

She has a few more days of the "needle" Neupagen at $550.00 per shot plus some pills for the mouth issue and that's it, so to speak, until Aug 25th. On that day she has a load of Decadron to take and get some bloodwork done then, the following day, back down to the hospital where they will try and get the Rituxan into her again. It was this drug that she had such a severe reaction to. (poor English!) After that the regular chemo and start it all again.

Luckily, right now anyway, the tennis is on at the Rogers Centre so she gets to watch that plus the PGA is on....keeps her mind of things. She's snoozing a lot during the day too.

So......one day at a time. Some days are better than others. Tis what it is!!

.....my love is like a red,red rose and so is Hilary's pee.

As eventful and unpleasant as yesterday was, today was easy.......so far anyway.

Down there in twenty minutes and out in two hours!! Great. The Zofran seems to prevent nausea. May it continue to do so

One of the elements makes you pee bright red for a few days. You even have to carefully clean the can otherwise it stains the porcelain apparently. If it does that what an earth does it do to your insides?? Hmmmmmmmm.

I talked about one of the drugs being made of gold. Found out some facts today. It's called Neupagen. Builds up your white cell count apparently. $4500.00 a cycle and Hil has 6 cycles. I estimate that the eighteen weeks sucks up about $75,000.00 in drugs alone!! Thank God for a Provincial Health Plan. Surely the American man in the street who votes against a National Health Plan has been brainwashed by the drug companies, insurance companies and private nursing homes. (Minor rant...LOL)

Hil, right now, feels fine. Tired but not throwing up. She'll have a regular dinner, see what that does to her insides.
We were definitely the minority group in the chemo clinic today. I think it was oriental day. They definitly do NOT bring sandwiches for lunch. Their lunches looked MUCH better!!

So back on Monday for a short visit. Several days of needles and pills then some time off. August 25 is bloodwork. August 26th do it all again.

So far so good!!!

one small step for Hilary....one giant step for the drug companies.

Well today was an oh so long day at chemo......over eight hours!
Just Hil's luck she had two allergic reactions to one of the drugs.....Rituxan....the first being almost immediate. She overheated, she turned bright red and she had severe pains from her head to her arse. Turned that one off in a hurry. Plan "B" push a ton of steroids into her and go back to Plan "A" Two hours later she gets the shakes and she's freezing cold. Top of that she's going to the can every twenty minutes or so. Gotta be a happy medium somewhere.
Plan "C" push Benedryl into her and go back to Plan "A" but at a much slower rate.

Lovely day so far.

Cut a long story short.....they got a third of the Rituxan into her which took all day instead of a full shot in two hours or so but not the rest of the chemo. Net result is we go back tomorrow for the rest of the show and back again next Monday for a needle of Nupogen which I think must be made out of solid gold!!! This stuff is so expensive that neither the hospital or drug stores can dispense it without Provincial Health authority. Can you believe that!!

I watch all this stuff being pumped into her and wonder where it all goes!! You'd think she'd blow up like a balloon!!

End of the day we drive home, go to the drugstore with our shopping list of drugs and pick up the dog...............who promptly throws up all over the broadloom. A fitting end to a memorable day.

Right now Hil just feels tired but, so far, not nauseous. Of course the rest of the chemo goes into her tomorrow. So we'll see what that brings.

Hil is so greatful for the support she's been getting.....phonecalls....cards.....flowers and the offers of help if needed. Vastly appreciated. Thank you.

Stay tuned.